Wildflower

Last night I posted a quirky little thing on my Facebook.

Let's see how forthcoming my Facebook friends are.... and if they are paying attention.....Leave a 1 word comment that you think best describes me using the THIRD letter of YOUR first name. No repeats. It can only be 1 word. Then copy and paste this post on your wall so I can leave a word about you ! This should be interesting !

I got some really sweet words.

Uplifting, inspiring, racy, mysterious, irresistible,scintillating (great word!) but the best one came from my oldest friend.  We met 30 years ago in 3rd grade. Unknowingly, our baby sisters were making fast friends as well.  Soon, the four of us were an unstoppable force of curiosity and wonder.  Year after year, we explored our world together and remained close though our parents warned that when we grew up we'd grow apart.  

And it happened. In our late 20's, we were all married and enjoyed time together.  After Mark and I split, it didn't feel as comfortable.  Soon I was off to Chicago and other places.  I carried on alone while they built strong families and lives.  Carey warned that maybe they all thought I was the lucky one and maybe their marriages were not as strong or as happy as I thought.  Carey divorced her husband a few months later.  The Wicker Sisters have remained married and Carey has since remarried.  I'm the only single.  

I added the Wicker Sisters some time ago, but the messages have been few.  Crissy mostly wrote to ask about Carey and Dawn didn't respond to any of the messages I left on her wall.  I assumed there were hard feelings.  It happens. We grew up, after all.

So I find that Dawn has left a comment...

She wrote Wildflower=beautiful and unique yet an unchained soul.

And I dance in that.  It is true and fair and real of me.  I wish I could call her and bare myself to her.  I wish she would bare herself to me.  I miss the honesty of that early friendship but I refrain.  Time might make it awkward. 

My life is different.  I am different.  I've learned to talk to myself when I cannot talk to anyone else.  Sometimes it's safer that way.